What Ryan is Teaching Me

I have to be honest. There's a struggle in my heart right now. My little man is getting ready to take the kindergarten plunge and I'm not entirely convinced he's ready.



Don't get me wrong. I have myself one smart boy. If you've ever talked to him, you know that he's smart. He can write his name. He can cut along straight and curved lines. He knows his letters and he knows his numbers. He can read three letter words. He can count beans and fruit loops...and rocks and screws. He can classify shapes and knows his colors. He can build like noone else, lemme tell ya. His vocabulary amazes me and his curiosity intrigues me. He's funny. He's witty. He's personable and he literally lights up a room.



So if he's ready for kinder on 'paper', why am I not yet convinced? Why do I feel that he's not {quite} ready?



Maybe it's because I don't want to stifle his curiosity with benchmarks.



Maybe it's because I want him to question things when he feels the urge to.



Maybe it's because I don't want to let him go into the wide, wide world and have it swallow him up.



Maybe it's because size-wise, he's small.



Maybe it's because I'm afraid he'll fail and every single fiber of my being, wants him to THRIVE.



Maybe it's because he has a hard time sitting still during story time.



Maybe it's because I don't want to push him too hard.



Maybe it's because I want him to fall in love with learning and right now his {loves} are a bit narrow.



Maybe it's because I can't picture him sitting at a desk for very long.



Maybe it's because I'm afraid that he won't like it.



Maybe it's because I'm afraid I'll make the wrong decision and it will affect the rest of his life.



Why does this have to be so ... hard?



A good friend suggests that for now, I have to PUSH (Pray Until Something Happens) hard.



PUSH.



PUSH.

And in the mean time, there's something that Ryan is teaching ME...

You have to start somewhere.

There are a lot of routes to the same destination

and sometimes, it's best to just dive in and give it a try.

School will be a lot like flight:
there will be highs, but they are not
appreciated without the lows.


And to get in the air, you have to start on the ground.


You'll get close to the finish and so long as you're flying, you know you'll hit your target.

You'll get closER to the finish

but you'll never get there until you take off.

My little man is growing wings and I'm PUSH-ing as hard as I can.